Have you ever felt like every thing you did just went
wrong. You turned on the light, and it
did not come on. You dropped everything
you picked up. Everything you go to do
feels harder…even heavier than it should.
Walking feels harder. Stair steps
feel harder. I mean a person could begin
to feel paranoid! To top it off, your
lack of patience with it all just leaves you feeling undone. Then when you get really still for a minutes, look
around, watch others, and listen to others, you understand that others do not seem
to be having these problems. (They probably are on another day.)
Well, I am going to go out on a limb here and suggest that
just like when you become aware that you are being called up to a higher place
regarding relationships, that the stuff of daily life may contain a call to a
place of freedom. The messenger is in
your trial. I believe that we wrestle
not against flesh and blood. Huumm…why
have I missed it that the powers of the spiritual arena may be playing games
with my life?
We are born with an inheritance—physical, emotional, and
spiritual—that we must submit to the dying daily part of our experience. The
overcoming potential is in all three realms.
What do I mean? My mother was
abused as a child. Her life was full of
abuse, deprivation (Depression years), and a rage-oholic father. She gave birth to me when she was about sixteen. My inheritance was very lacking on all three
levels. The Scripture says that the sins
of the father's are visited on the children unto the third and fourth
generation.
It is interesting that science is proving that mice carry and
pass down to the offspring the traumas they developed and inherited. These take
three to four years to be eliminated. This
gives us an understanding now that we are not all born equal. There is not a one-size-fits-all solution for
anyone. As a baby being born into my
mother’s difficult life and with the limited physical and emotional reserves available
to me, it is no wonder that I spent a lot of my childhood “checked out.”
Some of this spiritual inheritance that all of us receive is
not our own…it is what has been passed down.
Things like rage, grief, hate, vengeance, suicide, etc. This is an actual family spirit/stronghold
that we have to deal with that makes life more difficult than it would have
been without it. I have been paying
attention to these daily irritations. I
decided to pray about them, and the Lord showed me a spirit of vengeance (not
mine) and some other things which actually let the vengeance of someone else
come upon me. I have been wrestling against
the flesh…the things that the evil one has been using to get at me and make
days harder. In this situation, I did
not need to accept this. After prayer, I
sensed that it was gone.
Without this knowledge of science and Scripture and prayer
coming together, we are actually victimized over and over. We keep trying to bring sanity out of
insanity. We keep trying to manage
things that are not even ours. This has
all been interesting to me. Sometimes I
wonder why in the world I have had the opportunity to learn all this. I am grateful and know that my life would
have ended early without this information.
However, it is sometimes overwhelming.
If any of you would like more information on this subject, please let me
know. God bless!
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